two things...oops three

I wrote this note to myself on Saturday morning,

The things I wanted to accomplish before the Hollingsworths arrived..

I had been agonizing over my tree decision for weeks now.

I've always loved my live Christmas trees,

the smell,

 the color, 

the shape,

the feel.

But... 

last year gave me pause.

The lighting disasters,

how quickly it started to die and droop,

the fact that for the last few years,

 I always got my one and only sinus infection when I brought the live tree into the house

the disposal of dead tree.

I decided Saturday morning that I needed to make my decision.

I quickly added #3 to my list.

By Saturday afternoon,

 I had bought an artificial pre-lit 9 ft tree, and it was on its way to my front door.

We'll see when it gets here,

but I think I made a wise choice.

Here is a picture of her.

Bubba was my tree facilitator.

The time has come for me to make it easier on myself.

So thankful for all the Christmas' we did have together.

Some of my best & sweetest memories.

I miss you, Bubba.

Holidays are hard.

Grief never ends.

I just don't cry anymore.

💗

*More on this post and the rest of the crazy note I left myself.