hey bubba ~

I have so much to say to you.

That's the hardest thing.

We talked constantly about everything.

You were my sounding board,

you listened,

you shared your wisdom with me.

I was better because I could talk to you.

I don't have that anymore.

Communication is the thing I miss the most.

I still wake up in the middle of the night and think you are there beside me.

How can that be after all this time?

I'm confused for a moment and then I remember.

You are gone.

We never even got to say goodbye.

I bought a grill yesterday.

I haven't had one since I left the home we shared.

I don't have to buy propane tanks anymore.

I needed a natural gas model.

You would love that.

It's being delivered and installed today at 4:30...

Just in time for a 4th of July Bar B Que.

I've been really busy,

keeping our grandkids,

traveling,

working in VBS,

decorating my new home.

In spite of all I do, I feel lonely a lot.

Late evenings are the worst times for missing you.

I am grateful for my life.

It is very good,

It is full,

but I wish I had you here to share it with me.

Our family misses you too.

We talk about you so much and remember.

Memories are very special to me and I'm grateful I have them.

You know so much more than I do now.

You have been with Jesus for two years and four months.

I can't even imagine!

We'll talk about Him when I see you again.

You can tell me what you've been learning and what you've been doing.

I love you forever.

Cathy

💕